I have realized that I am am a nester by nature. I feel better as a person, mother, and wife when I organize. I have been this way since high school. Color coding, organizing, label maker, bins, baskets, etc. make my heart pitter patter a bit. I think this went to a new level when Nolan was diagnosed. When my whole life feels out of my control and disorganized, having something to organize, a system to create, a new procedure for all of us/our stuff to follow gives me a sense of calm, a sense of control I often desperately seek.
With a baby on the way, I feel like I have even more impending chaos (and time loss) coming for me. This has triggered the nesting to start at about 13 weeks. I make a list in my designated list making notebook and keep adding and ticking away at it. Some days I cross one thing off and add three more. Some days I cross off three and don’t add any. Sometimes I create and complete a project and I add it to the list just to cross it off–get that sense of accomplishment and seeing on paper one more thing I was in control of.
If you have anxiety over control in your life, over the baby coming, over life in general–try making a list of what you can control/do, and start ticking away at it little by little. Add every little thing (like change out seasonal decorations) to big things like paint the upstairs bathroom. It gives you a sense of control, a sense of accomplishment, and a better idea of who you are and what you are capable of.
Now, before you thinking I am all on top of things, please note that on the list is to do the 2017 family yearbook. 2017. Oh, and Stella’s baby book…I was pregnant in 2015 & 2016. Oh and the scrapbooking in the basement….I have Nolan’s first Easter done….Spring 2015. This baby is due in 2019. It is all about balance people. Balance.